Monday, April 27, 2015

Take the bitter with the sweet (surgery date!)

...........June 10th! My surgery will be on Wednesday, June 10th. It's not the two-week window of the last two weeks of May that I was given, but I'll take it.



Now we just have to re-work our vacation, work schedules....but, whatever. 




I go back on May 11th for my pre-surgery nutrition seminar and to sign consents....and to get re-weighed.



I started my period yesterday and it did me no good to explain to my MALE surgeon that I tend to gain about 10lbs of water weight around my period (hey, I have PCOS and endometriosis....there's a lot in inflammation going on there).

He didn't believe me and said that, to show that I'm still committed, I have to lose 4lbs in the next two weeks.



Ugh.....fucker (that's kind of the period talking, but not really).


I also have to go see my PCP for a pre-op physical, which I've already got scheduled for June 1st.

So for now, I'm just working on making a birthday cake-flavored protein shake since my birthday is 9 days after surgery.....happy early birthday to me!
(this will easily be the most expensive (and best) birthday present I ever get).

Wednesday, April 15, 2015

Shopping spree!! (not as fun as it sounds)

*tick*...*tock*.........*tiiiick*............*tooooock*

Yup...time is moving that fast. Is it the end of May yet?

Mr. Stanley has his countdown...I have mine.

 Still, while the time is dragging, I know that if I don't start preparing, it'll sneak up on me and I won't be ready. I've started stockpiling vitamins and supplements when I catch them on sale. Gummy multivitamins, iron, Biotin, calcium....you name it. Between the coupons and sales, I've done pretty well.
 I have to get into the habit of drinking lots of water, so I've also been looking for water bottles. I try to be environmentally conscientious, so I've been wanting to get glass water bottles. Because they're glass, they're not made with the chemicals that are in plastic, so you don't have to worry about BPA, and I think that the plastic ones make the water taste odd after a few washes. The problem is, the glass ones are so expensive! They run $25 and up. While walking around Meijer today, digging through the clearance aisles....tah-dah! CamelBak glass water bottles on clearance!



I know....I'm a klutz and carrying a glass bottle? These come with a silicon bumper sleeve that, according to the reviews I've read, do a great job of protecting them. I'm tempted to go back and get a few more so I can recycle all of my plastic bottles!






I also thought ahead about vacation: we're going to Florida while I'm off of work for surgery. I'd hate to buy cases of bottles water to take with us, and I'd hate to lug around a Brita pitcher just so I can filter my water. Meijer also has their Bobble bottles clearanced for $10. Bobble bottles are the ones that have a filter inside of them so that the water is filtered as you drink. Perfect for traveling!

Now for the protein: I've read so many nutrition labels, it makes my head hurt. My nutritionist recommends the powder they sell there, but it's marked up considerably. Plus, it only has 26 grams of protein per serving, and I KNOW I can find a higher protein content elsewhere. After reading multiple lables, I've decided on the Isopure Zero Carb line from Natures Best. It has 50 grams of protein per serving and lots of vitamins and nutrients. 

Honestly....it tastes horrible. I ordered it from Amazon in the vanilla and unflavored. I learned about a trick of adding sugar-free pudding mix to shakes to change up the flavor and I buy Torani sugar-free syrups, so I'm hoping to make them palatable. 
 
I think I've stocked up on most everything I'll need. My last appointment with my doctor and my nutritionist is on the 27th- I'm hoping to get an official surgery date. Until then.....

*tick*.............*tock*....................
 
 

Thursday, April 2, 2015

What do you know....I am mentally competent!

For those of you've who've known me for more than....20 minutes, you know I'm a bit out there. Goofy. Odd. Wacky. Inappropriate.
And this suits me just fine.

I was a bit nervous about my psychological evaluation today; mainly because I didn't know what to expect. 
It started with an interview with the doctor- where did I grow up? How would I describe my childhood? Any siblings? How long have I been married? Highest education level? Highest adult weight? Any traumatic experiences due to my weight? What do I hope to achieve with surgery? Am I a crash/yo-yo dieter? Am I physically active? Etc...

Then I had a 20 question test, circling the statements that best described me:
I feel ashamed of my weight an never go out because of it.
I feel like others judge me because of my weight.
I feel comfortable in public. 
I can't control my eating.
I'm constantly thinking about food.
I binge eat and feel guilty after.

Things like that. Then a 165-question scantron test (sweet jesus, my hand hurts) that consisted of true or false questions like:
I have high anxiety about my medical problems.
I feel like no one cares about me.
I feel that because of God, nothing bad will happen to me.
I like detailed information about my medical problems.

I think they're trying to pick up on any depression, anxiety, hypochondriacs, or substance abuse issues. 

After my initial interview, she gave me the green light and said she had no concerns about my goals or expectations. 
All that's left is my last appointment on the 27th with my nut and my doctor and then it's all up to Cigna to give me an approval. At my last appointment, I was given the time frame of the last two weeks of May....fingers crossed!

 

Monday, March 2, 2015

FMI (for my information)

Every so often, I find a great article that I bookmark. I think I'm going to post some of them here so they're more accessible to me and others that are around me while I'm eating.

No matter how fast or successful you were in initially losing weight, these are the top ten things that can and will sink you!
1.Drinking with Meals
Taking a big glug of iced tea with a mouth full of food is normal for many. But after weight loss surgery, drinking while you are eating washes the food out of your pouch. This allows you to refill your pouch and eat around your surgery. There are some who do this on purpose so they can eat more, adding the twist of psychological sabotage.
People come up with the excuse that they have to drink because they are thirsty. Drink a glass of water before you eat. Problem solved. You can drink right up until you take that first bite, but once the food starts, no more drinking unless you are choking. This is critical to long term success. No drinking with meals. Forever. Period. Done.
After bariatric surgery no drinking with meals 2. Drinking Soda
Having a pop doesn’t do anything as dramatic as explode your pouch or even stretch it, BUT it does take many back to a time when they would drink a twelve pack OR MORE of Dr. Pepper a day. There are many people who drank a LOT of soda before their bariatric surgery. It is better to not go back there. Post ops are also more likely to drink their soda with meals and that is a combination that will eventually get you back to pre op weight.
3. Not Making Good Food Choices
We obviously made more bad than good choices or we wouldn’t have needed weight loss surgery. We envy Slim People as genetically blessed and don’t realize they watch their food choices and exercise as their normal. When I would lunch with my naturally slim and fit friend Veronica, I would think ‘She is so thin, why is she eating grilled salmon on a house salad? She can afford to eat the bacon blue cheese burger and fries!’
It never dawned on me that she was slim because she didn’t choose burgers and fries plus she exercised in her living room every single morning. I had it backwards and it took me a long time to own that I ate differently than others.
Cook fresh food, stop with the processed ‘dead’ food, fast food, convenience foods and surround yourself with better choices. For the rest of your life, ‘Protein First, followed by lower carb Vegetables’ is the plan. Keep repeating it. Stick to it. You chose surgery knowing this was the deal. Why have your stomach removed if you never truly intended to change toxic food choices?
No alcohol for one year after bariatric surgery 4. Not Understanding Alcohol
Not a drop of alcohol for the first year after surgery. The liver and other organs are already pushed beyond normal limits by massive weight loss detox. Non negotiable.
Your prior experiences with alcohol are no longer valid as things change with your bariatric surgery. Without a handbag sized stomach for digestion, the cocktail dribbles directly into the small intestine and is sucked into the bloodstream at almost full proof. You can get deliriously sloppy and dangerously drunk in seconds. With RNY surgery you can additionally become ill from sugar as specialty cocktails can easily contain 50 grams of sugar.
Never drink alcohol unless you are with someone with whom you can trust with your life. Period. Your Match.com date does not qualify. Things can go very wrong with alcohol and if you are alone or with someone who does not understand your surgery, it may place you in grave danger. Never do a shot or feel pressured to keep drinking as alcohol poisoning can kill you.
There are studies that show a slightly increased rate of alcoholism in the bariatric set that may be due to a transfer of compulsive behavior. Be aware of this. If you find you are drinking more than occasionally or cannot stop, get help. Call your surgeons office, they won’t judge and will know what to do.
There is a strong pull to go out, dance and party after being released from the bonds of obesity and social drinking can be a part of that life. We are not a website that tells you to not drink, just have a plan before that first sip. There was a woman in BE Support Group who asked in open forum which cocktail she should drink for her wedding as she was one year post op and had not tried alcohol. Not a good idea to have your first post op drink at your own wedding, the office holiday party, or a business dinner with your boss.
5. Not Taking Vitamins or Supplements
Let’s cut to the chase. It’s ridiculous to think that you could have most of your stomach removed or cut in half with intestines bypassed, or a silicon band choking down the organ to the point where forced malnutrition causes a 100 pound weight drop in a few months and NOT need to take vitamins. Professionals TELL US we must take bariatric supplements yet most don’t. It is shocking how many don’t bother and wonder why they are sick! They insist they chew ice because they LIKE it, when unbeknownst to them they have a ferritin stored iron level of *3*. Serious iron deficiencies can damage your heart.
How long can someone last when food intake is restricted and they cannot absorb nutrients? Take vitamins. Take vitamins. Take vitamins. If you have bariatric surgery at age 35, what happens to you after 25 years of deficiencies? It does not end well. The numbers of post ops who break a wrist or ankle in minor trip and fall accidents would shock you. Longterm post ops are horrified that their teeth have loosened because of osteoporotic jawbones. Many need much more involved dental procedures including bone grafts when the underlying structures won’t support a root canal or implant.
There are serious conditions and symptoms that can hurt you when you are deficient in vitamins, protein and or minerals. There are neurological conditions caused by not taking essential supplements that are irreversible and can even lead to death. Yep, death.
The image below is from the surgery report when I fractured my ankle in a motorcycle accident 8 years post op. “The bone was extremely osteoporotic”. That straightens you right up. These stories are common. Wake up and pop a couple of capsules!
Fractured ankle with Osteoporosis, gastric bypass 6. Not Drinking Enough Water
Dehydration is the number one reason for hospital readmission and is a largely preventable complication. Your surgical team is not kidding when they tell you to keep sipping. Many come out of surgery feeling good and then after the first ten days slide into dizziness, nausea, headache, not being able to keep focus and falling asleep mid sentence. It gets progressively worse and unfortunately lands them in a hospital bed where they are fortunately hydrated with a fluid IV. Stay in front of the problem and drink water on schedule to prevent this.
Adequate water intake will also help flush fat metabolites from your system as you lose weight. Drinking water releases water weight so you will lose more pounds.
Our Hy Water app will help you and its free at GetHyApp.com where you can download it at The App Store. Tap the screen and every set number of minutes there is a fun reminder to DRINK UP.
650x366 7. Grazing
Plan and eat actual meals. Three meals plus Two small Protein Snacks; this is also called Five Small Meals. Grazing is eating a bite here and a bite there, never really filing up. Your small pouch is the strongest tool and not filling it is giving up a powerful way to control fullness.
Sit down with your plate then slowly and deliberately eat your meal; fullness or satiety will tell you when to stop. Grazing is a behavior that allows you to consume a larger amount of food over a longer period of time as pouch fullness does not happen. If you realize you are grazing, stop it by eating enough solid protein to feel full, a hard cooked or deviled egg, rolled up deli turkey, half a protein bar.
Much of what we call grazing is due to ‘head hunger’ where we think we are hungry or actually just looking for something to do. Take up beading, play online games, read, anything to take attention from food!
8. Not Exercising
Obese people think that people who go to the gym like to exercise. The truth is that people who exercise WANT to look and feel good. Few really like the act of working out, they like the result.
EAT LESS BURN MORE is a mathematical formula to lose weight! The boost provided by even 10 minutes a day of jacking up your heart rate will help you lose weight faster, give you a chance at keeping it off longer, help you LIVE longer and make you look & FEEL better. I cannot believe the energy I now have and I am happy. I wasted so much time feeling so tired and sad.
If you are right now formulating silent excuses that ‘you would’ but have bad knees, medical maladies, no money for gym membership and no time, we have BE exercise plans for you that are done at home, using no equipment, place zero impact on joints and take up just 10 minutes of your day. Poof. Nice try. Excuses gone. If you choose to be a slug, OWN IT! Sorry, but walking around Walmart doesn’t count for squat. Get real.
This short video features BJ Gaddour of Men’s Health and StreamFit and shows how LITTLE exercise you can do – I promise that it will make a difference! This low impact full body movement is called a Ground Zero Jump. Your feet do not leave the floor. Anyone can do it and it can be done anywhere. Stand up and give it a try. It will make you feel proud to do it!
9. Eating Too Many Carbs
Let’s lay it out there. A big post op problem is HUNGER and many do not get that carbs are the reason.
Protein crowds out the carbs which controls hunger and forces weight loss. While a Little Debbie cake may have the same carbs as a dish of blueberries, it has zero nutrients. The little cake is a processed or dead food with no nutritional value. Choose the berries for great taste, fewer calories, tons of nutrients and use the energy to burn stored fat! All around a much better deal.
Carbs like pretzels and biscuits burn quickly and leave you hungry for more. Ever notice that eating crackers just makes you want to eat more crackers? Once you are at goal you can have a small amount of anything you want but make it your choice rather than a compulsion and only once you are in control of food.
When people are gaining weight and keep a food journal for a few days, its usually obvious that its the carbs that have wiggled their way back into the kitchen. Clean them out, stop buying them and get some fresh lower carb foods that bring nutrients to the party.
10. Assuming Surgery Has Cured Your Morbid Obesity
Calling it a Honeymoon Period is an accurate description. When weight is falling off and suddenly the world is brighter and all is good it is hard to imagine you will ever face the problems of morbid obesity ever again.
Here’s your wake up call. THE WEIGHT LOSS PARTY ENDS. During those first seven months of massive weight loss you are not driving the bus. You will lose the same amount of weight no matter what you do. There are some who don’t catch on to this and happily think that they have somehow cheated the system and are still losing weight while eating french fries. This does not end well in the long run.
It is common for post ops to not lose all the way to goal weight or over the years regain a substantial portion or even all of their weight back if they have not embraced making completely different foods choices. Even those paying attention can get hit with a gain, just like people who have not had weight loss surgery can gain weight. As with most successes, you create a long term plan and follow it. Weight loss surgery is not effortless nor does it last forever without serious commitment to the new way of life you create.
Change is hard, even with weight loss surgery. While we all thought this would be less difficult and more permanent, it turns out that just like in non-surgical life, once out from under the burden of 150 plus pounds it still comes down to diet, exercise and our willingness to change.

Thursday, February 26, 2015

And off I go!

I have been waiting for today since.....well, last August when I tried to get things going with St. Elizabeth. 

I met with my surgeon and a nutritionist today (which I'll abbreviate to "nut" from now on). When the nut was reviewing my 24 hour diet and list of foods I eat,her reply was "it looks like you eat pretty healthy!". Yeah...I do. Unfortunately, it's not enough.
"How many times a week do you eat out at a sit-down restaurant?"
Once. Sometimes twice.
"How many times a week do you eat fast food?"
NEVER (bleh)
Yuck...please...


She explained about how this involves a lifestyle change: I can only eat 2-4 oz of food at each meal, no more drinking liquids with meals, I'll have to follow a 2 week pre-op liquid diet, pureed diet for two weeks after surgery, soft foods for three weeks after, and I'll have to take a multi-vitamin daily for the rest of my life.
I've researched this thoroughly and I follow an amazing group of supportive people on Facebook that are pre and post op that I've learned so much from.
Got it.

After that, Dr. Northup came in. We reviewed my medical history and he asked if I have any concerns with having surgery....no. Being that I work in the medical field, I know too much. I have zero concerns. 
Check back with me when it gets closer to my surgery date...I might be a little nervous then.

Both my nut and Dr. Northup asked the same question: what are you wanting to get out of this?
"Well, I'd like for my knees to not hurt. I'd like for my back to not hurt from the weight I'm carrying around. I'd like to be able to physically be more active. I'd like to be fit. I'd like to not feel like I'm holding back my spouse (who has a healthy weight) from doing physical activities together."
"I'd like to be able to enjoy life"

To quote Dr. Northup (who said this several times)- 
"You are a perfect candidate for surgery".
*Happy dance!*


All my insurance is requiring is that I follow up with Dr. Northup and meet with the nut for three months. They don't care about me losing weight before surgery or my weight/medical history. Mercy and Dr. Northup, however, do require that I do the following:
  • A psychological evaluation. Everybody does it- they just want to gauge how realistic you are about understanding this lifestyle change.
  • Blood work. I've had some done in the last 30 days, so they pulled it into my chart from my doc (isn't electronic charting awesome?!?) and there are two things missing that they screen for. I just have to go have blood drawn so they can check for those two things.
  • Get a letter of recommendation from my doctor- I handed them two. One from my PCP and one from my OB/GYN since one of my comorbidities is PCOS.
  • Attend one support group meeting.
That's it.
I don't have to do a sleep study. I don't have to do a cardiac study. I don't have to have an endoscopy done to check for hernia's or ulcers. I don't have a gallbladder anymore, so I don't have to get an ultrasound done. Any I don't have any respiratory issues, so I don't have to do a pulmonary study.
My psych eval is already scheduled for April 2nd (seriously, that was the soonest opening they had). I can attend a support group meeting at any time. It's really just a matter of getting the three requirements done and seeing my surgeon/nut once a month. 
Is it May yet?!?

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Baby(less) steps...

Went to my OB/GYN to have an IUD placed today. I had tried the copper one, Paragard, last year. I didn't think it was possible for my periods to get worse due to my PCOS and endometriosis, but ta dah- they did! They're actually had me in the emergency room a few times for 7+ hours while they tried to get my pain and hemorrhaging under control. My OB/GYN swears that Mirena and the progesterone in it will make them better. I'm focusing on getting things in order before surgery. Birth control is one of them.

According to Dr. Northup, women with PCOS become fertile myrtles after surgery due to the dramatic weight loss. It's not advisable to become pregnant within the first year after surgery. For me, someone who has no desire to have children, it's not advisable AT ALL. So, fingers crossed that the Mirena works out.











Part of my insurance approving me for the surgery is that my doctors advise/clear me for it. Because PCOS is considered a comorbidity, I asked my OB/GYN is she would be willing to write one recommending that I have the surgery. She did...ON THE SPOT (Dr. Magner is awesome if anyone in the Cincinnati area needs an OB/GYN). So that's one letter. I have an appointment with my primary care doc tomorrow (which I will now refer to as my PCP- it's healthcare lingo). My blood pressure the last few times I've had it taken was in the 140's/90's. Today at the OB/GYN- 158/110(!!!) So I'm meeting my PCP tomorrow to talk to her about my blood pressure and see if she'll write my letter of recommendation for the surgery. Wednesday, after a training class for work, I'm gonna swing by the weight loss doc I went to for copies of my charts.

At this rate, I'm gonna have every single thing they need from me before my appointment next month.

Also, I've been researching other issues that arise after surgery; depression and divorce.

There's a phenomenon known as "Bariatric divorce". Divorce rates are already high; for those who have had bariatric surgery, however, they're even higher (like 50% higher).
As one of many articles on the subject points out, it's likely that the marriages that crumble after surgery were ones that had a weak foundation to begin with- http://www.obesityaction.org/educational-resources/resource-articles-2/weight-loss-surgery/relationship-challenges-before-and-after-weight-loss-surgery.
David and I have been together since time began (ok, fifteen years...feels like forever when you're thirty).
Us in our 30's....seriously
Are we perfect? No. Do we have our issues? Yes- we're normal like that. We're also best friends and have been through a lot. I don't know that I can definitely say no hard times will come from me losing all of this weight. That's why, just to be proactive, I'm gonna start seeing a counselor. One that can see both of us. Another possible side effect of bariatric surgery is, oddly enough, depression! I know- it's hard to imagine being depressed when you're shedding all of this weight that has been physically AND mentally weighing me down all of my life. According to the research I've done though, sometimes the changes the weight loss brings in your life are so sudden, people don't know how to cope. I figure our insurance pays for it so, again, be proactive and stay ahead of the game. 


Update- I just came back from seeing my PCP (I love Dr. Drake, you have no idea). We talked it out and decided that, for now, a low-dose blood pressure medication would be beneficial- my blood pressure was still a bit high today. Plus, another comorbidity doesn't hurt in my favor to have weight-loss surgery. I asked her to write a letter clearing me for surgery and recommending it and she did- right on the spot. She had time while I was blubbering to her about how embarrassed I am about gaining weight back and feeling embarrassed and having a hard time even leaving the house. I never cry- I'm not a crier! I just think I've been holding this in for a while (plus, I did have the Mirena put in yesterday- maybe it's from the progesterone in it? Yeah, I'll blame it on that). 

Now I have two letters of approval from my two docs that I see regularly, I have a couple of comorbidities, a more than qualifying BMI, and the tenacity to see it through:
is it February 26th yet?!?






 


Sunday, January 25, 2015

First contact...finally!

After several months of trying to get something started, it's happening!

Happy dance!

Mercy called with my insurance requirements for surgery: 3 months of a nutritionist supervised diet and a letter of clearance from my family doctor. That's it. 

Mercy, on the other hand, does a ton of testing before you can have the surgery- a sleep study to test for sleep apnea, EKG's for any heart problems you may not be aware of, labs to check my thyroid, iron levels, vitamin levels, and cholesterol levels, a psychological evaluation (do I tell them about the voices?), and possibly a GI evaluation to check for ulcers or a hernia. 

My first appointment is February 26th (it would have been March 17th if I'd waited until the doc was at Anderson, where I'd much rather go). Hey, to get in sooner, I'll drive all the way to Fairfield. 

When I count it up, if there are no complications with Cigna, that means I'll hopefully be getting surgery in May or early June!

Is it February 26th yet?